Monday 12th July the big day

Well, as many of you know, I did it! I got to the top! I started to write this blog on Wednesday 14^th July and, I have to say, I really didn’t know what to write. The only thing I knew was I was in pain, and to be honest I hadn’t really enjoyed it.

Now it is Tuesday 10^th August and looking back on it, I wouldn’t change a thing, because for the rest of my life I can say I have climbed Ben Nevis.

Let’s start at the beginning. Allison and Danielle (my sister and best friend) came over to our cottage at 5 in the morning. We were all very excited and very positive. This was it, the day for which I had been training, for a year.

We set off, had some photos by the first sign and thought of some songs we could sing to keep us going. OK, that was just Dani and me, I think Andy and Allison were still sleeping, but you get the gist of things - we were all very happy.

I stopped every half and hour or so, just to keep my energy levels up. Allison took photos of us all the way, Dani took videos of us and Andy took photos of the view as I couldn’t take it all in. All I could think about was walking.

We got to the lake by about 11 to 11.30 and sat down for half an hour and had lunch. I have to say I was feeling really good. I still had lots of energy and could see the top (or what I thought was the top) of the mountain. At one point I even said we could be at the top by 2pm. I was stupidly happy and still enjoying it. The worst was still to come.

So, as I said, we had our lunch and we were off again. We were all having lots of fun and we knew mum (Vivian), dad (Graham), Kevin (my brother), Lou (my sister-in-law) and Freddie (my 8 month old nephew) were going to catch up with us soon.

We walked over a water fall, had some more photos and then the path got really hard. It was just all gravel, which is when I started to struggle. When the rest of them caught up with us it gave me a really big push.

Because I was slower than everyone else and Kev was carrying Freddie, they had to go on ahead of us, which I understand I’m glad they came, as I said, they gave me a really big push when I needed it.

Mum and dad stayed with Andy, Dani, Allison and me. I can’t really describe how hard I was finding it at this point. I think I said to Andy quietly, “I’m not sure I can do this,” and Andy, being Andy, told me I was being stupid and to just keep walking and that I could do it. In my own words, “All I need to do is believe I can do it.”

The people who kept walking past were all very supportive and kept telling me that it wasn’t far now, which I believed, as I could still see the top. At this point, I needed help so I texted my friends saying, “Please help, half an hour to go, not sure if I can make it, can you believe in me?”

I just have to say thank you to all those who texted me before and who texted me then, because if it wasn’t for all of you believing in me, I know I would have turned around long before this point.

Kevin and Lou phoned us and said that they were very sorry but they needed to get Freddie down, he needed feeding. It took them over an hour to meet us, passing the other way. I thought because it was such a long while till we met them again it meant they waited a bit longer before they started walking. What I know now is that they started walking as soon as they phoned us. That’s how far away from the top we were!

When they got to us Kevin asked me if I wanted him to get Freddie down and then come back up with a tent so we could stay overnight. The only thing I could think of, and said to Kev, was that I just want this day to end, and if I stayed overnight this day is going to go on to two days. I’m not sure I could cope with that.

When we got to what we thought was the top, it wasn’t the top! There was another lip to climb - which I did. But then there was another one! I told everyone that I’d give up I couldn’t do it, there was really nothing left in me. By the way, it was past 2 pm. At this point my family told me not to give up and that if they needed to get me to the top, they would carry me.

I was really disappointed with myself - it had come to me giving up or being carried to the top! I carried on walking for a bit, but as I said there really wasn’t anything thing left in me. I couldn’t think straight. I think someone asked me if I was in pain and I had to say I didn’t know - everything was numb including my brain. I’m not sure if that was a good thing or not, in a way I’m glad I couldn’t feel anything because I don’t think I could have coped with the pain.

The decision of me walking or being carried to the top was taken out of my hands. Dad, Andy and Dani all carried me, stopping every now and again for a little rest and then on to the top.

Once we got over the last lip of the mountain it was flat, you had to walk around the ridge of the mountain and there was a man-made view point the other side. Once we got here I said, “That’s it. We’re at the top, that’s man-made and the challenge was to get to the top. I did it. Let’s go.” But once again my family said that I couldn’t give up now and so I walked round with help from Andy and Dad.

When talking about getting to the top I thought I was going to be very emotional, but I was so tired crying wasn’t an option, it was a waste of energy. In fact, there is a very good photo of Andy holding my hands up trying to celebrate with me looking like I’m dying.

Just so you can keep up with the timing we got to the top at 8.30pm that night, as I said before, nowhere near 2pm.

We stayed up there for about half an hour to an hour, had lots of photos taken and then decided to walk down. We all wanted to get past the waterfall before night fall, so we were all on a mission to get to that part of the path.

It didn’t get dark until 12 at night, but I just couldn’t walk any more and there was no way I was being carried again. So we found a little dip on the side of the mountain and we all sat down to relax. Mum and dad were sat together, Andy, Dani and me were sat together and Allison sat on her own.

Now, as I said, it was 12 at night, dark and starting to get cold. So Andy, Dani and me decide to play I spy with my little eye. We found this very funny and it is a story I will be telling for a while.

We started walking about an hour or so later, after we all had about half an hour’ sleep at the most. I found it hard, but it was nice thinking the end was near. All I could think about was having a bath and relaxing. By the way we did have some torches with us so we didn’t walk without any light.

We got on the nice path, which we were all looking forward to, but I needed to stop a lot. Every time I stopped everyone else stopped and slept as much as they could.

I was finding it really hard, but it was my challenge and I knew it wasn’t going to be easy. I was looking around and seeing how hard everyone else was finding it and all I could think was this is my fault. No one would have been there without me. I did say this to everyone and, without hitting me, everyone said they were very proud of me and they wouldn’t have missed it.

As we were walking down I got a text from Kev saying he can see us coming down and that Lou is on her way back up to meet us. So that gives me another big push.

I’m not sure if any of you have walked up Ben Nevis, but there is only one bench to sit on, on the whole walk. So when we got to the bench we could see the bottom, we could see Lou coming and we all just sat down to relax. This was great, because it wasn’t a hard, cold rock to sit on.

When Lou caught us up, she had got us all a hot Ribena which was the nicest thing in the world at that point and, on behalf of us all, thanks so much for that, we all really appreciated it.

Once we had all had a nice hot drink and relaxed, we were off again for the last little part of the walk. As you may know, we were all exhausted. We all had nothing left. We got to the bottom of the walk and there was a stile to get over! But hey, at least that really was the bottom and I never have to climb anything again. EVER.

So that was it, that was my journey, my challenge, my experience and that of my family and closest friend - to climb Ben Nevis.

Looking back on it now, almost one month later, I loved every minute of it, and I wouldn’t have changed a thing. I will never do it again, but for the rest of my life I can say I climbed Ben Nevis.

It was around 11am when we stopped for lunch that I started to get all my supportive texts from everyone, and yes you guessed it here they all are :

Kevin

Hu two three four, keep it up two three four. Looking out for you, keep going.

Aunty Joy

Hello caroline hope all is well good luck and love from aunty joy and co xxx

Sain

Good luck don’t know whether you have made a start or how far up you are but you can do it. We are thinking of you GO CAZ I know you can do it! Xxx J

Julia

Hope the weather is good for you today, good luck Julia x

Donna

You can do it! Liz says ‘go for it Caroliny’x

Pam

Have you made a start yet? How long do you think it will take?

Ali

Come on Caz, you can do it! Keep going! Josh says come on Uncle Caz! Let me know how your doing!

Hayley

Just think you have climbed most of the way. I know you can do it. You’re the most determined person I know. I will be waiting for a text.

Pam

Keep going xxx

Aunty Joy

Hope all is well keep going aunty joy sorry can’t do capitals or full stops much love xxx

Tim

Hi Caz, Hope the climb is going well. Whishing you all the best of luck, you can do it! J

Pam

Keep going xxx

Aunty Joy

I understand all is going well keep it up xxx (Aunty Joy has been texting and calling mum as well)

Suana

Hi, hows it going. You must be nearly there now. Keep going you’ve done so well. We are all thinking of you. See you soon Love Susan, Alan and Dan xxx

Pam

Just read your web site again, keep going stinky xxx

Hell

Hey there, not sure if you would have reached the top or not. Keep going if you haven’t. Make sure to take some photos x

Pam

A few more yards and you can stop for afternoon tea. Come on Stinky you can do it, xxx

Aunty Joy

Not much further keep going love aunty joy xxx

Julia

Good luck – keep going – nearly there now! All very proud of you. Julia, Nick and Ellie x

Lorraine

We all wish you well keep going xxx

Pam

Are you getting close yet? I have every faith in you. Strike for the summit bonny lass xx

As I said before I was finding it very hard, and started to believe I couldn’t do it. Here is the text I sent to everyone around 6pm:

Hi, nearly there can see the top. ½ hr left to walk, but really need your help. Can’t quite believe in myself, but can you?

You guessed it here is all my replys

Donna

You can do it Caroline! We are all rooting for you. Look at what you have achived already and 1/2hr to go! Wow !!!!x

Hayley

Your doing really well. The top is in site can’t give up now. So proud of you! Just think of all the money you have raised and all the people you will prove wrong.

Hell

If it’s only half an hour then you definartely can. You’ve gone all this way so it’s only the last stretch.

Pam

I believe in you I always have. Go bonny lass. Think of all those calories you are burning xx

Lorraine

I think you are amazing well done xxx

Donna

How are you? (didn’t reply, still going)

Aunty Joy

Almost there well done aunty joy xxxx

Pam

Did you make it? X (not yet still going)

At 8.30pm I text everyone to let them know I made it to the top, here is what I said:

Hi, well I started at 5 this morning, and this is me at the top J. I have made it with a little help from my family and a big help from all of you. Thanks for all the text you have given me. All I need to do now is get back down. So once again, wish me luck and I will see you all soon, I hope J.

Hell

Cool, well done. Have a well deserved Malibu when you return xxx

Ali

Well done, I’m really proud of you! I knew you would do it though! Going down is the easy part it’ all down hill, but let me know when your back down J well done again J

Hayley

Proud of you! Can’t you get a cart back down.

Kevin

Well done Caroline keep on going.

Kevin

Oh the long and winding road, J chin up.

Sain

Brillant you have done it good for you! The hardest part is over! Your find the strength and get to the bottom good luck see you soon take care thinking of you xxx

Pam

Congratulations from several of the ladies that used to do English with you and of course me xxx

At about 10.30 on the Tuesday 13^th when I was back down and runny my well deserved bath I text this to everyone:

Well, as you all know I got to the top of Ben Nevis yesterday. We started at 5 in the morning, and we didn’t get there until 8.30 in the evening. Now I knew it was going to be hard coming back down, but we didn’t get back until 10 in the morning today. So in all we walked for 29 hours, how’s that for a challenge ;-)

Here are my replys

Ali

My god! You must be so proud of yourself are you aching?

Me

Aching isn’t the word for how I feel right now, but yes I’m happy with myself J

Ali

You should be well done!

Pam

MMMMmmm I did not think about coming down! Good job you did it!

Pauline

Well done, very proud of you. Makes me tired just thinking about it. Love Pauline

Shelly

Your amazing – CONGRATULATIONS! Love Shelly xx

Julia

OMG! What an achievement. You must be shattered now. Well done to you xx

Here are some of the texts my mum got

Congratulations K and L xxx

Rob

Hi Viv, That’s fantastic good for her and all the rest of you guys! Say a big well done from me J

How fantastic congrats. What an amazing girl. Love Rosy xx

Aunty Chris

That is brilliant. We are in awe. You must be so proud. Xxx

Now on the Wednesday as we were all about to go out and enjoy ourselves (without walking up a mountine) when I got this text:

Hi Caroline. My name is Mark. We passed you on Ben Nevis yesterday. I looked you up on the net. I sincerely hope you did well and returned home safely. Best of luck for the future and congratulations !!!

I replayed

Hi Mark it’s Caroline, I just have to say thanks so much for your support. We were walking for 29 hours, but yes I got the the top, and apart from a few aching muscles I got back down safely, Thanks again.

Then I got:

My god!! I found it hard. We stared at 11 and I think I was four up and three down. One of the guys we were with gave up about a third of the way up! I hope you know you’re an inspiration! All the best and good luck for the amazing future your going to have!

I have to say THANK YOU for all your support, I really couldn’t have done it without you all. But most of all I have to thank my family and best friend - not just for the support they have given me with this walk, but for the support they have given me my whole life.

If it wasn’t for my mum and dad, and all the positive thinking they have given Allison, Kevin and me, there is no way I could have been though all the life challenges that have been thrown at me, let alone the challenges I put my self though.

There is one person that I haven’t thanked and that’s Andy. I have only known Andy for 6 years, and we have only been going out for 4 years, but I know there is no way I would have ever got this far in my life without him. He is always possative, he looks after me (when I let him) but most of all, he believes in me, sometimes even when I don’t believe in myself. As many of you know, I’m getting married on Saturday, and I’m so proud to be able to say I’m going to be a Caroline Beckett and to have my family by my side.

So this is it this is the end of an eventful year. Hope you have enjoyed the ride, I know I have. Thanks again and I will write again if there are any other challenges, but believe me when I say it won’t be any time soon.

Sunday 11th July

Well this is it, I have been training and planning for a year, and now it’s tomorrow.

I can’t believe it’s come round so quickly, I have to say I have loved every minuet of it, but I haven’t done it yet. Lets see what I say when I get back. So far all I have been doing it shopping for it, and believe me that’s fun.

I am so excited about doing it, but also I’m terrified. This is a chance of a life time, and it’s a story I’m going to be telling for years to come. But it’s so big, and far, and what if I don’t make it. I have so many supporters, I don’t want to let my self down, but most of all I don’t want to let you all down.

I have sent a text out to some of my friends, asking them to sent me a good luck text sometime tomorrow, just to give me that extra push going up. Already I have got some really supportive texts back, which is really good. Every text I get makes me that little bit more excited, which is just what I need, so thanks to you all for texting me already.

Anyway I’m going to go to bed now, I’ve got a big day ahead of me, wish me luck and I will let you all know how I do,

Thanks again

Caz

This is the text I sent out to everyone the night before.

Hi, just so you know, the weather looks good for tomorrow. The next time I text you I will be at the top J. I was wondering if you could text me sometime tomorrow, just to give me that extra push to keep me going? Wish me luck and see you soon J.

These are the texts I got back from people,

Donna

Wow, the time has come. All the very best for tomorrow. I will text you tomorrow x

Lorraine

I think what you are doing is marvellous, I will text you tomorrow xxxx

Pam

Extra push? You will be wanting a piggy back next! You go girl! I will be thinking of you, Good Luck Caroline J Love Pam xx

Ali

Yea of course I will text you no worries. Good luck but I know you will be fine.

Tim

Hi Caz, good luck for tomorrow J

Hayley

Course I will text you! Hope you have signal up there.

Julia

Good Luck for tomorrow. We are all behind you all the way (not literally of course) Loads of love from Julia, Nick and Ellie xxx ps Put that glass of wine down !!x

Sorry it's late

Well since I last wrote to you all I have been doing lots of walking and swimming. I have walked into Bournemouth from Charminster; I know that doesn’t sound too far for you all but for me that’s really good.

I have been in the Daily Echo which I have to say was a very strange day for me.

I woke up in the morning with Andy going to work as normal, and as Andy left I get a phone call. Still a bit sleepy I answer and someone says "We have seen your peace in the paper today and was wondering if you wouldn't mind talking live on air". Just to fill you in I know I was going to be in the paper but I didn't know when I was in the paper.

Of course when they asked me I was very excited about being asked to talk on the radio and being in the paper all in one day, so I said "yes when would you like me to talk". They said "great, we are just going to put you on hold for 2 mins, and then when we come back to you, your be live on air"

Now as I said I was still sleepy and on my own, I didn't have time to tell anyone what was going on and I was very excited but with no one to enjoy this moment with. From what I could tell it went fine. I was only on air for about 10 mins but it felt like 20 mins.

After that I went striate to the News Agent, and yes I know it's sad but I brought 7 copy's of the Daily Echo, which I was very glad about as all my friends took a copy. My mum got lots as well, but hey I'm guessing mums allowed.

After that Hope FM called me and said they would like me to come into the station and talk to them for 1hr.No mum came with me for this one and I have to say it was very strange but very fun.

I found it very hard concentrating on what I wanted to say, because there was so much going on in the studio. But from what I can tell form my friends and family it sounded better than it felt.

Now I have had a big break from all the Ben Nevis madness as me and Andy went to Australia for a month. Now I won’t go on about it to much, but let’s just say it was the best holiday I have ever been on. We did do a lot of walking and swimming, so it wasn't all sitting around.

Before we went we went to Snowdon again. Now I have to say I wanted to get to the cafe half way up, but if I didn't then I wasn't that bothered. As we went my mum and dad came with us but they wanted to get to the top. As I started to get really worn out I could see the cafe, but didn't think I could make it any further. I phoned my dad and said I can't make it and I'm turning around. As I put the phone down I get a text from my sister. It said "keep going Stinky (nick name) - you can go just a but further and then a little more :-) hope you have fun and see you soon” Now talk about timing. You guessed it I got to the cafe and loved every min of it.

It's times like that which makes me realise why I have asked my family to walk up Ben Nevis with me. It's my friends and family that is going to push me further than I have ever been pushed before, and I'm so excited I can't wait.

Well as I said this is it. We are all going up to Scotland tomorrow and are planning to have the nice little walk on Monday, depending on the weather. As soon as I get back I will write everyone a long blog to let you know how I do. I promise you all now I'm going to make it, all I need is to believe in my self. Wish me luck and I will write soon.

Love Caz

Hi everyone :)

I will be updating my blog very soon as I have been very slack with news - so much going on at the moment what with organising my wedding, a holiday to Australia next month and the Ben Nevis Challenge.

I just wanted to let you all know that I will have an hours slot on radio next Monday (12th April) night at 7pm - Hope Fm 90.1fm - so listen in everyone and let m eknow what you think :)

Catch you all soon x

Friday 9th October

Friday 9th October

As I have never been up a mountain before and, as you all know, I'm walking up Ben Nevis, Andy and I decided to walk up Snowdon to get a taste of what I have let myself in for.

On Friday the 9th Andy dropped me off at work at 7 in the morning and came back at 2.30 to pick me up and we were off. Andy was very quiet all the way up there but, hey, it was a long day so we were both tired.

We got to the hotel at 10.30 pm and went straight to sleep. When we got up we both decided that we were going to take our time and not rush. We just wanted to see how much work we both have to do.

We had breakfast and started walking at about 11. When we started walking it was raining and foggy but kind of nice and cool. When we had been walking for about an hour the weather started to clear and the sun came out.

We walked for about 2½ hours and I started to get tired so we decided to stop for lunch. Andy gave me my drink and was fiddling around with his bag.

Andy then came up next to me got down on one knee with a little box. He told me he loved me, that he loves spending time with me, that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me and will I marry him. Of course I said yes, so you guessed it we're engaged.

I phoned my mum and dad, and my sister was there, so told her as well. Then called my brother and his wife, who I have to say didn’t answer, I then called my best friend Dani who again didn’t answer (but I knew she wouldn't as she was away for the weekend as well) I then called my other best friend who was there and everyone was so excited for us. While I was making all my phone calls Andy sent his family a text just saying she said, “Yes”. I know that’s what he said because he sent it to me as well.

Well, back to Snowdon. It took us 2½ hours to get up as far as we did, but it took us 2 hours to get back, and I only fell over once. When we got back to the bottom again I was feeling tired but I wasn’t in pain, which I think was very good considering it was the first mountain I have ever climbed.

We came back on Sunday and all in all it was a very good weekend, a weekend I think Andy and I will never forget. So when you read this Andy - Thank you so much and I love you.

I will keep everyone informed with anything else exciting going on in my life.

Tuesday 22nd September

Tuesday 22nd September

Before we went on holiday Andy and I had decided to join a gym. We went around lots of gyms and we both decided the best gym for me was Virgin Active, which happens to be where Rob works.

We felt this was the right one because I feel they will give me the right support to help me reach my goals. It helps because Rob worked there, as he knows what I want, what I need to work on and, as I said, just gives me the right support.

So I joined the gym on Tuesday the 22nd September but I couldn’t do anything until Rob had shown me what I could use and how to use it. So as I was waiting to finish work on Tuesday the 29th I had a phone call from Rob saying he had someone cancel on him and would I like to come in. So of course I said yes.

I went home, got changed and headed straight to the gym. I was really nervous about going because I really wasn’t sure what I was going to do.

When I arrived Rob was waiting so we went straight in. It was going well but then Rob gets me on a big ball. He told me to sit on it and then lift my right let up and turn my ankle around, so I give it a go and nearly fall off backwards. It got to the point where Rob has to hold me for me to be able to do it.

Well I did it and I thought I had finished with the ball until Rob took me over to one of the machines with the ball. Rob gave me lots of weight-type things to do sitting on the ball. This meant I sounded like a monkey the whole time, trying to stay on the ball and Rob spent the whole time trying to keep me on the ball. It was very funny and I felt very, very stupid.

I’m sure it's going to do me a lot of good, but its going to take time seeing all that without seeing how stupid I looked at first.

I have been to the gym a couple of times since that night, and to be honest I have chickened out of doing anything thing in the gym and have just gone swimming.

I know I need to do it, but I just need to get a bit more confidence. I am going to get in touch with Rob to see if he can help me, and I will let you know how I get on.